Because if you did, you wouldn’t be calling other girls cute or asking for other girls numbers and shit. Just because she isn’t there and you’re with your boys doesn’t mean you’re fucking single. If you don’t love her then stop telling her what she wants to hear because she probably deserves a lot more then fake love she needs the real thing.
I guess I’m just tired of being sick and tired. Most of time I just feel so alone, misunderstood and fucking numb.
Yeah that’s the worst, feeling numb, because it’s not even a feeling… You just don’t think, don’t feel, don’t have the energy for anything.
It’s become a routine for me to just wake up in the morning, plaster a smile on my face and pretend like I’m fine even though I feel like everything is crumbling around me.
I don’t even know why i’m not happy. Which doesn’t help because at least if I knew I would be able to something about it.
I’m sick of how my emotions change so easily, one minute I’m fine and the next I’m the most horrible person.
I feel 13 again. I was like that just after it happened. But this time nothing happened to me. So I just don’t know anymore.
Sometimes I wish I could just quit. Not die (because the thought of my flesh rotting in the ground is just something I can’t even think about) but just escape. I just want to feel happy again. I wish I could stop pretending and actually feel happy.